Monday, January 2, 2012

My Blog Is 4 Years Old!!!

I cant believe it but I have had this blog now for 4 years.. And to think, it all started out by reading Leigh Bratina's blog back in December of 2007 and I thought I needed one like hers to vent to.. lol I haven't posted much lately and really haven't felt like posting much since my mom died.. I guess it is time for me to start purging again.. LOL I have a lot of things I need to get out and it is hard to do it when I am living with males.. They don't understand the constant need for me to purge my feelings..

I realized this, once again, on Christmas Eve when I had been stuffing emotions and the such for a while.. We had a party at my sister's house and I stayed away from everyone and wasn't very social, which is VERY unlike me..Later that night, while I laid in bed, I felt so helpless and my heart was racing.. My husband started getting worried.. I told him this is the result of me not dealing with emotions..So, I guess it is time.. I am tired of the emotional roller coaster I am on and it is wreaking havok on my body as well.. I have gained about 15 pounds since my mom died.. It's time to take back my life.. And my body.. lol Sick of feeling LUMPY..So, a New Year and a NEW Michelle..

1 comment:

Leigh of Tales from Bloggeritaville said...

Thank you for the nod. I am so impressed with how raw, how honest you have been in your emotional journey. Michelle, this can really be beneficial to someone who is going through the same thing. I think it is perfectly normal to feel guilty and angry, it is part of the grieveing process. But dont lose yourself in it. With every trial in life there is a lesson to be learned about ourselves. And it is always a positive discovery to find out what that truth and lesson is. And so often it is one that is also beneficial to others. Im not saying the death of your beautiful mother was a good thing, but there will be good to come from it. I am certain of that. I am praying for you. And I pray you move beyond the feelings of guilt and can focus on the beautiful memories and lessons learned. And what a place to record those lessons, Michelle! I love you.

1 Peter 5:10 -And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.