I cant believe it but I have had this blog now for 4 years.. And to think, it all started out by reading Leigh Bratina's blog back in December of 2007 and I thought I needed one like hers to vent to.. lol I haven't posted much lately and really haven't felt like posting much since my mom died.. I guess it is time for me to start purging again.. LOL I have a lot of things I need to get out and it is hard to do it when I am living with males.. They don't understand the constant need for me to purge my feelings..
I realized this, once again, on Christmas Eve when I had been stuffing emotions and the such for a while.. We had a party at my sister's house and I stayed away from everyone and wasn't very social, which is VERY unlike me..Later that night, while I laid in bed, I felt so helpless and my heart was racing.. My husband started getting worried.. I told him this is the result of me not dealing with emotions..So, I guess it is time.. I am tired of the emotional roller coaster I am on and it is wreaking havok on my body as well.. I have gained about 15 pounds since my mom died.. It's time to take back my life.. And my body.. lol Sick of feeling LUMPY..So, a New Year and a NEW Michelle..