SOM- SUMMER of MICHELLE!!!

A wonderful friend of mine recently said on her Facebook status that it was the "Summer of Beth" and I thought "WOW, what an awesome idea?" So, I have declared this, SUMMER OF MICHELLE.. But, what does it mean?

I decided that after the rough school year that I had just had, that it was time for me to be more selfish about ME.. I pretty much had given about all I could give by the month of September, and have been running on empty for a few months already..Usually, by Wednesday, I was SPENT and still had 2 more days to go before the weekend.. It has taken its toll on my health and sanity, for sure!! Last summer, I lost about 35 pounds and felt GREAT!! I kept most of it off until this past March.. All of a sudden, I had gained about 10 pounds back.. And I am not joking.. I weighed almost daily and all of a sudden, the scale was registering 5 pounds more, then 5 more.. Almost overnight!!!

I blame part of it on stress.. My body doesnt react to stress very well.. And watching all of this unfold REALLY has helped me see where my triggers are.. It isnt that I was eating like a pig.. I wasnt eating super healthy but I wasnt eating like there was no tomorrow.. I also wasnt exercising.. Kinda hard to exercise when you come home from work PHYSICALLY and MENTALLY drained and exhausted and THEN you have to go to a baseball game.. LOL Guess whats for dinner?? BALLPARK FOOD!!! haha

My mother's diagnosis of Stage 3C Uterine Cancer didnt help either.. I was so worried about her and then after she had her surgery, I was worried about her going through chemo.. She has done wonderfully but she's my MOM.. I will always worry about her when she's sick.. Much like I will worry about my kids when something is going on with them.. Worry will do you IN!!!

I have decided that I need to stop worrying as much and enjoy life MORE.. Considering my husband calls me DEBBIE DOWNER, I think this will be a good thing.. haha Diet wise, I am going to try to eat more protein and less carbohydrates.. The carbs tend to make me crave MORE carbs.. ESPECIALLY chocolate.. And I am trying to exercise more.. Wait, let me change that.. Exercise PERIOD.. lol

I hope that I can get ME back ASAP.. I miss the ME of last summer.. When I find her, Ill let you know!! ha

Are YOU on The Biggest Loser? BE MY FRIEND.. lol

Ok.. I have a confession to make.. I am a stalker.. Not just ANY stalker.. I am a stalker of anyone that has ever been on the show The Biggest Loser.. LOL Seriously, I have "friended" just about anyone I can that has been on that show thats on Facebook that I recognize.. Weird? Probably.. lol

But there is some method to my madness.. I have suffered with weight issues most of my life and will continue to suffer from them til the day I die, Im sure.. This is what draws people to them and if *I* was a contestant on the show, I would probably pull alot of my strength from the posts on my wall and my inbox messages.. I am not saying that what I have to say to any of the contestants or past contestants will make their day, but what I am saying is the multitude of positive responses HELPS NO MATTER WHAT!!!

When I did the HCG diet and I would post on my Facebook Status and people would comment , Id have to say it really helped me.. And all I had to lose was about 40 pounds.. I cant imagine having to lose over 100 pounds, as most of the people on the show have to lose.. It is amazing to me to see how gracious alot of the past contestants still are and continue to be on Facebook..

I have yet to form a "Facebook Friendly Rapport" with any TBL contestants even though I think it would be REALLY cool if I had a friend.. LOL The closest Steve and I have come is he actually went to college with Phillip and Amy Parham from Greenville, SC.. They have talked a few times and remembered each other.. I left a post on Michael Vantrella's wall today and I got a " Michael Vantrella LIKES your post" message.. LOL

Im such a NERD

In Desperate Need of THERAPY!!

What kind of therapy?? I dont know.. ANY KIND of therapy would be nice..Psychotherapy? DEFINITELY..I have 3 sons, 2 that are teenagers and one thats now 20.. I work in special education.. That makes me certifiable alone.. lol

Physical Therapy? More than likely.. I am 40 now.. lol I have aches and pains only a forty years plus person can have.. Back pains, a weird pain in my arm that seems alot like TENNIS ELBOW but funny thing is I DONT PLAY TENNIS.. I dont even work out right now..

Radiation Therapy? A definite consideration if my freakin thyroid doesnt stop hypering and hypo-ing so much.. ugh..

Aroma therapy? YES, as long as it rids my house from the oh-so-wonderful eau de parfum smell called "Teenageboysfreshfromtheballpark" scent.. YUMMY

My life is on hold right now until May 27.. That is the last day of school.. This has been a rough year for me mentally, emotionally and physically.. I am looking forward to the summer.. And you thought only kids loved summer.. LOL